Dammit, before I forget I need to tell about one of the jokes some of my friends pulled on this kid a couple weeks back. Ok, we were assigned an essay to evaluate FDR and his accomplishments before WWII. So my friends, AJ and Jorge, tell this other kid (I think his name was either Brendan or Matt I think) to focus on these two important things: 1. The CRC, which was the Canadian-Russian Coalition, a power strong enough to stop the Germans, and 2. The Idaho Potato Famine, which resulted in the farmers gathering thier pitchforks and sharp farm tools to stage the Idahoan Revolt. This kid, who was a really big doof, actually believed every word that came out of their mouths. It was made evident when they said to him, "Okay, go ask Fr. Bender (our history teacher) if it would be ok to use those two examples." So this kid goes up to Fr. Bender's desk and says, "Fr. Bender, is it ok if we use the CRC and Idahoan Revolt in our essay?" And Fr. Bender just looks up and gives him that look that he gives to people that says, "What the hell are you talking about you freaking strange little man?" Mad funny stuff.

Well, today went well. God answered my prayers by making another one of my teachers absent. Woohoo. So tonight I only have two homework assignments that I haven't done yet. I must read an English story, and then study for a math "quest" (a kooky term that Ms Weatherall made up for an evaluation that counts a bit more than two quizzes but less than a test). The reason I haven't started anything yet was that I just woke up from a two hour nap ... and I'm still tired. Lemme get to bed early so that I can be energetic tomorrow, and so that afterschool I can shoot hoops with Chui. I'm outties, paz

Today was a pretty damn great day. I woke up feeling tired like heck, went to school, and bang! Ms. Basile was absent today! Excellent. So I went through the day, had an hour and forty minute lunch period, and in film we watched more of Once Upon a Time in America. That movie is freaking crazy ... oh my gosh. In the hour we watched today, there were about 8-9 bloody murders and 2 rapes. Freaking crazy. And that second rape scene was maaaad ... I can't think of the word. That's probably what a real rape would be like, damn that was freaking real. That scene has this one dude, who had been in love with this girl for like 20 years of his life, in a car with that girl. They had just finished a night of dancing and dining and were going home. He's pissed cuz he confessed to her how much he loved her, and upon hearing this she coldly replied that she would be leaving for Hollywood the next day. So in the car he's all pissed, and she kisses him. No response, he's got the cold-shoulder. Kisses him again. No response. Then he starts kissing her ... they kiss more ... and then uhoh. He starts ripping up her dress to shreds, unzipping his pants and basically ripping off her undergarments. He forcefully holds up her legs and enters her, while the chaffeur drives on seemingly oblivious to what's going on right behind him. I guess in those days chaffeurs just kept their mouths shut about that sort of thing. Crazy stuff. Afterschool, I went home and tried breaking a bit but I was too tired I guess, cuz I got fatigued easily. (shrugs) Ah wellz. I'm outties. Peace.

Well, today went rather well. Aight, so I wake up, yadda yadda, went to mass and had CCD, and then ate lunch. Then I finished up my DJ boot camp assignment for this week by greeting about 22 people. I noticed there were two responses to my greeting and smile. Either the person totally ignored me or they smiled at me and perhaps greeted me in return. Another thing I noticed was that most would not keep prolonged eye contact. Low confidence I guess, or perhaps it's because that's how us New Yorkers are trained. I dunno. After that, I went home, watched the NBA games, did homework, and here I am. I just need to finish up a bit of Spanish and I'm ready to rumble for tomorrow. I'm out, paz

FUCK! Last night I spent like 20 minutes writing up my day yesterday and freaking blogger erased it cuz it got messed up when posting. Aaaaaah! Aight, lemme provide just a brief review of yesterday then. Hmmm ... the day went well, I played a lot of b-ball and handball. Good stuff. I did pretty damn well in b-ball today, but Petey kicked my ass in handball. Afterschool, played a bit more ball and then played pool. In one game I won on the break cuz I sank the 8 ball! Kickass ain't it? Then came the last dance of the year, which was pretty fun. Right now I'm around number 30 in my boot camp assignment, so I can finish that tomorrow after CCD. Oh, and here's the details of my b-boying and popping last night: Around 8:45, a circle formed for us to break. I did a toprock to downrock to about 4 swipes to more downrock to a freeze. I received a couple of claps from the girls from that one, so that was good. The second time I entered the circle, I did toprock to downrock to helicopters to attempted turtles. Yep, I totally messed up the turtles cuz I didn't get balanced and I collapsed on the spot. Ah wellz. I did redeem myself later in the night though. Another circle formed around 9:40 and the ravers did their thang. When the crowd started to get tired of that stuff, I busted out with some nice popping. It consisted of the Usher side glide to enter, popping left-right-left-right, some body waves, leg puppetry/waves, and finished it up with a bit of tutting. Good stuff overall, and that got some good cheers and claps from the ladies. Excellent stuff. Overall a good night.

Hey what's up? Well I'm pretty damn tired right now, and I should be getting to bed soon cuz I want to be energetic for the dance tomorrow night. Today was a pretty good day ... I woke up late, went through the schoolday, and afterschool I went with Chui and Eben to drop off the stuff for the job application. Hmm ... well today something came to mind and this is a really tough question: What would you do if a girl you were banging became pregnant? Very tough. Honestly, at first I'd be all stressed out and I'd be panicking. After the initial craze, I think I probably might suggest an abortion if the girl didn't want to have the baby either. If she didn't want to kill the baby, and we agreed to put the baby up for adoption, I'd opt for that. If she wanted to keep the baby ... that's where I'm stuck. Totally and utterly stuck. Because then I'd obviously want to have a part in my child's life, because s/he would be my son/daughter ... it would just plain suck knowing that I let my kid grow up without a father. But it would be worse killing my own flesh and blood in an abortion. I know that an abortion would be wrong according to church ethics, but damn, having a baby would totally mess up my life. I would have to support the mother and child by going to work, and I probably wouldn't be able to go to college ... it would be a total mess. Sometimes I don't think about that, when the media is feeding us sex, sex, and more sex twenty-four seven 365. It's like sex does not = pregnancy and problems. This is a crazy world we live in, all mixed up.

Well, today was a pretty damn good day, except for the fact that we got a test or quiz in every class today except for math. Ah wellz, I think I kicked ass in most of them. Afterschool, I went home and practiced a bit of breakdancing for the first time since ... well it's been so long that I've forgotten already! Ah wellz, now I'm mad sore in three places: my right arm, my left hip, and my left knee. Learning those damned windmills is tough. Hmmm ... well that's about all I've got to say for today. I'm outties.

Today was a rather kickass day. Well, let's see ... I went through the day, and since Doc Trix was out, we ended up having an hour and 20 free. In that time I played ball for like 25 mins, and for half an hour I learned how to play handball. It's actually pretty fun yet simple. I should try to get good so I can actually play against those people on the weekends without getting destroyed. Oh and details on my balling today ... I did maaaad well one on one against Petey. We played til 11, but had to stop at ten all since Pete had to go to class. My driving was pretty good as always, and my post work is starting to develop. I landed a couple of hook shots, and I even got two spin move layups to go in. Woohoo. I gotta work on that spin move stuff, it's quality. Afterschool, I bought some handballs and Louie DeVito's new CD, Dance Factory. It's pretty damn good, especially that Heaven song. Quality. I'm outties.

Well, let's review my day. I went through school, yadda yadda. Everything went pretty well today, and in film class we watched more of that movie. Pretty good film so far. I went home, bought a baseball glove, and gave Chui the stuff for work. Then came the super frustrating part. I went to Dr. Smalls for an appt at 4:45, and I got out of the HIP center at 9:15. What a fucking slowass motherfucking bitch. And now I still have to do my spanish since I had my dictionary at home. Fuck this shit.

Well, today was a rather kickass day. I woke up yadda yadda, blah blah, taught class, ate lunch, blah blah. Tomorrow I need to get my working card, buy a baseball glove, and do a lot of other stuff. I went home around 2, and then I did a crapload of homework. I'm almost done with everything needed; necesito a terminar la tarea español. Hmm, well my DJ boot camp assignment for this week is to say hi to 50 strangers. They can be male, female, young, old. Preferably they should be attractive females my age though. This assignment is pretty easy. I'm outties

Sup! Well, today was a pretty kickass day, even though I didn't finish as much as I wanted to get done in terms of homework. The morning was spent reading some of the other play we need to read (I've got about 90 pages left), and then the rest of the day I just watched the NBA. Stockton's passing was so kickass ... and he would've had the game-tying three as time expired if that damn Scott Padgett idiot didn't touch the freaking ball! What a dunce. My family and I went to eat dinner at the St. Michael family social ... and it was rather boring at first since there was nobody there within two years of my age. So I just sat there, talking to random adults/teachers I know, and then ate. The DJ sucked some big ass. But then I thought, "Screw it" and started dancing. And damn ... I tore it up. A lil popping, a lil waving, a lil monty python stupidass shit, and a lil Michael Jackson moonwalk in there. The adults loved it, and I even got a couple of compliments from some. hehe So it ended up being fun despite my skepticism at first. I'm outties

Well today was a rather good day. I had like 4 hours of sleep last night though, so that was bad ... but anyways, I woke up, went through the day. Afterschool, I played some ball. Damn I was feeling it today. My D was very good and my driving was also kickass today. I've learned to explode with going to my left, but I still have problems with left handed layups. Gotta work on those. Hmm ... well then I went home since I was tired, and I just came back from an appointment just a half hour ago. NBA playoffs start tomorrow! Woohoo!

Hey guess what? My cold is gone! I forgot to mention that. So I'm going to enter DJ Boot Camp hehe it sounds so stupid. But if I complete it, I'mma be proud of myself. Week One assignment due April 28, go out, smile, make eye contact, and smile with at least 50 people. Young, old, male, female. Easy enough, but damn they're going to think I'm a kook. What the hell eh? :) And who says I'm not one? ;) hehe So anyways, I finished my history essay in one hour, izzat kickass or what? QUE!? lol The Bucks are out of the playoffs ... damn they're one disappointing team. Lakers? Boooo, hissss. hehe. My favs for the playoffs are the Blazers (since I want the Lakers to lose in the first round to them), the Jazz (dammit, they're one of my favorite teams ever since I've seen J-Stock play), and the Nets (Kidd is such a great PG too. Coupla more years of his kickassness, and he'll be on the level of J-Stock and Magic). Hmm, I have to review the Spanish for a test tomorrow, and bang I'm ready to conquer tomorrow like ... well I dunno. But it's all good. I'm outties, paz

Well. Today was a rather decent day. I plan to begin talking to begin on my quest on becoming a DJ again. I'm basically starting from scratch ... ah wellz. Lemme review yesterday first since I didn't post, and I'll get to the reason for that soon enough. Aight, on Tuesday night I slept at 2:30 cuz I procrastinated. I went through the day pretty damn sleepy and blah blah. Hmm ... what else? Oh yeah, then last night I fell asleep at 8:15 setting my alarm to wake up at 8:50(I needed the power nap before I did my hw dammit, so don't laugh). Guess what happened? While sleeping I knocked one of my pillows over my clock and I didn't hear it ring, and ended up sleeping til 4:30. I woke up, and oh crap. I did all my hw (thank God I didn't have too much), and bang the school day was good. This weekend is going to be rough though, since I'm going to have to do quite a bit of stuff. Uh oh, spaghettios. Damn, the corniness of some of my schoolmates is rubbing off on me. I'll leave the corny jokes told by some of my classmates for some other time. I'm outties.

Well I got home around 8, ate dinner, watched a bit of Thirteen Ghosts, and then here I am. Today went rather well, and the kiddos that came for our Christian Service project were cool kids. Adorable lil tykes. However, some problems today, they came like an hour and a half late, and when they said there would be like 20 kids, only about 7 came. Hehe So while we were waiting during that 1.5 hours, we played ball and ate some stuff. When the kids came, daaaamn. There were Krispy Kremes, Dunkin Donuts, homemade cupcakes, and tons of chips and cookies flying around the place. AAAAAARGH! I gotta go for an appt with my doc for these damn working papers. Nooooooooo!!!!! Do you know how long it takes for a Dr. Smalls appt? Say you're scheduled for 5:30. You'll be outta the center by around 8-ish. Yup, he's THAT slow. Argh. I've got a shitload of crap to do this week, but I'm ready. It's going to be rough, but I can get through it. And oh yeah, on the way home there were these two girls making eye contact with me. Decent looking, but I still have this damn cold. It's getting better though ... but right now I dunno whether it's a cold or allergies. Cuz last week it really was a cold. Isn't that Foxwoods song great?

Well, I got through yesterday and today. Today was beautiful! Oh my. Very nice weather. I went through the day, kicked the computer test's ass, and in film we watched some film whose title I forget. I'll get it to you sometime or other. Anyways, we watched the first hour of it, and damn, it's rather damn good. Oh yeah, it's Once Upon a Time in America Jennifer Connelly is about 13 in that movie, and even then she was pretty cute. After school, I went home, checked out the price for protein supplements at GNC, checked out some stuff at Old Navy, and went home. Tomorrow I'm going to buy the protein supplements

Well, here I am procrastinating again. I didn't do any hw yesterday and I'm pissing in my pants (not literally) trying to get all this shit done today. I hate when I do this to myself. And guess what? My damn cough/cold hasn't healed yet. Argh. I'm not going to mack again until I finally heal from this damn sickness. While doing hw, I was watching the Blazer-Laker game and ... YEAH!!! They won after coming back from 13 down in the fourth. Woohoo! I was doubting them when they were down, but they came back each time, even after being down like 8 points in the first OT. In the second OT, they pulled away thanks to their resilient efforts. Kickass! On a sadder note, I read Candice's blog and she says that she's got some sort of sickness or something that will kill her before she reaches 32 or something. Very sad. Well I gotta do homework now, hopefully I don't have to go to school tomorrow since my cough is getting really shitty.

Well, today was rather nice. I saw plenty of opportunities to mack, but I was still sick and also I said I'm taking a break from that. Hmm, so basically I woke up around 8:45, went to play b-ball at 11. Just shot around for about an hour playing HORSE. My offense was totally off today. Maybe it was cuz I was still sick. I probably should have rested, but damn man, the weather was beautiful today so I just couldn't resist. Around 12 we stop to eat lunch and head to Mickey Ds.
Lady: May I take your order?
Me: Yeah, I want a McChicken Sandwich, a Caesar Salad, and mash potatoes.
Lady: Okay, you want a McChicken Sandwich, a Caesar Salad, and (gives me a strange look) what was that last one?
Me: (slowly) Mash potatoes (with a straight face)
Lady: I'm sorry but we don't sell mash potatoes here. How about fries?
Me: No mash potatoes!?!? Oh nevermind then.
Hahaha That was funny. Leo, Chui, Nestor, my sis, and I were cracking up over that one. So my sis ate her McChicken Sandwich, and my Caesar Salad was surprisingly yummy. Around 1 we started playing ball again, and the teams were the Chuas and J-Rey (me) vs Dennis, Steven, Mark, and Jay. They kicked our sorry asses. We lost the series 4-1 in games to 21. I got a lot of assists, but my offense totally sucked. Maybe like 3 or 4 baskets the whole afternoon. At least my free throws were working. Hmm, and oh yeah. If I'm playing ball outside, I'm not going to put my morning medicine cuz it burns my face ... umm what else? Oh yeah, afterwards my sis and I went to Bubble Cafe and I tried out the Mango green tea and the California Roll there. The California rolls were pretty damn decent, but I like the almond milk tea over the mango green tea. We went home, and I just dozed on my bed cuz I was mad tired. Then I played some NBA2k2, and ate dinner and did no homework. I'm going to regret that tomorrow since I'm going to have to kill myself to complete all the shit I want to finish. It's going to be tough, but I'm happy with my decisions today. No Regrets.

Oh yeah. So my plan is to get well this weekend, screw the macking. Ignore macking until I get better, and plus it's good to just relax from those pressures for a while. Then I'm coming back full force soon after.

Hmm, well. My cold hasn't cured yet, but I'm going to bed early tonight to get some well deserved and sorely needed sleep. Hmm, well Quang came over to my place today to finish up the commercial, and then afterwards we played pool w/ Chui. Quang kicked our sorry asses pretty damn badly. He even played two games with one (!!!) hand. I tried it out, and it actually is a bit easier on certain spots. And damn there were a ton of fine ass honeys out today. A ton. I wanted to mack, but eh. I'm sick. I still sound nasal like Fran Drescher. hehe Hmm, so tomorrow I'll play b-ball and do homework. It's all good. I'm outties.

Oh. My. I went on the bus today at about 4, and wow. There were a ton of hotties. There was this one asian girl, oh my gosh. She had the biggest pair of mammary glands on an asian girl my age I've ever seen. Very cute face to boot. Ooowee. Eh, but I didn't approach since I felt like crap. My cold is making me have a nasal voice. I can even sound like Fran Drescher and that hideous laugh of hers. Hehe I've got a headache too. Ah wellz. So I got my haircut and my application for the summer job at the hospital where Chui's mom works after that. Hmm, so all I gotta do now is finish up memorizing the spanish skit, and then maybe some chem problems. I gotta get my chem prowess back in order, because when Mrs. Hannon handed back my test yesterday (C+ was the grade), she said that I should see her when I have free time. Uhoh. I don't like the sounds of that.

F*ck. What the f*cking hell!? Guess what? Once again, Quang can't make it today to finish filming today, and I turned down a good one day job for nothing! I could've gotten a good bit of cash for myself, but nooooo. I turned it down yesterday cuz I thought Quang was going to come over! ARGH! I hate when people pull bullshit like this. Eben is sometimes the same way. Yeah, he says ok, I can make it. And then when you call him up he doesn't answer his phone cuz he has caller ID when it's time to go. Annoys the shit outta me. Well, enough ranting. On to other news. Woke up at 9 today cuz my dad woke me up. I specifically told him not to wake me up today, and guess what he does? Wakes me up. (sigh) Some people never listen. Hmm, oh yeah. Last night I watched the movie, Dr Strangelove: Or How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb. Good movie. Pretty damn funny in certain parts. Definitely recommend watching it. Well, I'm sick still. Good news: my cough is doing better. Bad news: the cold seems to have gotten worse today. (sigh) Well I finished my history reading, all I have left is math, spanish, and chem. Hmm so today I guess I'll get a haircut. Then I can go to the library and possibly borrow a movie, and then go back home, finish the homework needed, and then watch the flick. Yeah I think I can do that. I'm outties.

Well, today was a kickass day besides me being sick. Okay, let's see ... woke up, felt horrible. Went through the day ... then gym class came and we had to run the reservoir! Argh, 1.6 miles of running hell. At least that's what I thought it was going to be, since I was coughing and felt bleh. However, it was a beautiful day, so once I started running, I kept a good pace and bang! Ran it in 12:36! One of my best times I think. Then afterschool we had class night. We watched The Nutty Professor, which was rather damn funny, and then went to Benihana's (sp?). Japanese food is maaad good. I ate the hibachi steak and some California sushi. Good stuff. Mmmmm. And guess what else? I forced myself to eat with chopsticks today. I'm so proud. Woohoo! Hehe Thank God I don't have school tomorrow. I need to sleep in tomorrow just to relax and get my body back into order from this crappy cold/cough. I'm outties

Y'know, I think that perhaps the reason I was doubting myself was that I was feeling secure with the fact I had gotten a number. Now I know to keep on chuggin and getting numbers until one is "going steady." Hahaha Damn, I still find it kind of amusing.

:) Hahaha Well it seems that I have been played for the first time. Well I've learned my lesson, no use moping about it. Y'know I'm kinda surprised, I don't feel sad about it at all. I'll get another number soon once I start feeling better or I see a good opportunity. This is going to be a good one to tell to my friends. :) hehe

F*ck. I can't find something that I want. Ah wellz. Hmm, well my cough got worse today. And add a runny nose on top of that. Yep, that sums up to some misery. Overall though, today was pretty damn decent. I try to keep a positive outlook on things now, so yeah today was pretty good. Nothing too challenging, nothing too boring. Hmm, so yeah I'm going to call up Alice tonight. If she doesn't remember me then ah wellz. I'll get another number this week or next once I start feeling better. Argh, I don't have much experience with first calls though. Just gotta keep cool, calm, and collected. Me calmo, Juan.

Oh God. I just had the most embarassing conversation with my mom during dinner. Okay, so we were talking about Nestor's birthday party yesterday, and I was talking about the food. Okay, I finish talking and then:
Mom: Daddy said he found a condom in your drawer.
Me: Blank look (but my heart was pounding and I was like, "Ooooh shit."
Mom: Where'd you get the condom?
Me: Condom? Oh yeah ... I got it from one of my friends at school. (Which was of course, a total lie. I bought them cuz one never knows when one will get a lay)
Mom: Remember, no sex. There's too many diseases now. They may look ok on the outside but they might be carrying AIDS or something.
Me: Okay.
... Silence endures during dinner for the next 5 minutes.
hahaha It was a pretty embarassing convo. Pretty funny though. It seems that I trusted my parents NOT to snoop around my shit. And it seems they did. I think they think I'm having sex now. They seemed cool enough with it, perhaps since it would be protected sex. I'm not stupid enough to get a girl pregnant. That would definitely be not cool. Hmm, so anyways, I'm outties.

Hmm, I think I'mma switch up the formatting of my blog so that it's easier for Doc Trix to read. I'll make it in chronological post order now.

(sigh) Well as intended, today was spent not thinking about the opposite sex. I woke up around 10, and felt pretty damn good. Not great since I still had that cough, but I felt energetic. I ate brunch, then went to the 12:15 mass. I spent the afternoon cleaning the van and lounging around the house watching TV and ish. Pretty boring day, but I don't mind since I didn't feel like doing anything strenuous today. I still have to understand the pre-cal we're doing, or else I'm screwed the next time we have a test. Hmm, well we have two months left of school, and that means I've got to work my ass off, most especially in Math and Chem since I haven't been doing too well in those subjects lately. Well all that's left for me to do today is study Math, watch the end of the Mets game (it's in the 13th inning right now I think), and watch the Lakers-Heat game. Then I can eat and go to bed early so I'll be ready for my first day back.

Dammit, when's daylight savings time? I think it's tonight that we spring forward and lose one hour of sleep. Argh. Lemme ask someone. Damn, it's tonight. Ah wellz. So I guess right now it should basically be 11. Hmm that sucks. And guess what? I got the cough from my sister. Wonderful. Hmm, today I woke up, brought my sister to her creative writing classes, and then when walking home, it started snowing. What the heck!? We barely had snow the whole winter and when it's spring we get some. Crazy nature. After that, I went home, ate lunch, then went to Chui's house cuz it was Nestor's birthday today. I played some videogames for about two hours, and then went out to play some billiards. I did well playing pool today, winning like 4 or 5 games straight against Chui and Eben. We went back to Chui's place afterwards, ate dinner, and played more videogames. We even broke out the oldschool N64 and played No Mercy. Oh the memories. I still kick muchos juevos in that game. Yup, I dominated today. hehe Well, I don't think I'm going to be able to mack it tomorrow to get a number, unless I'm feeling better. But the way my throat is right now, uh uh. Well, my only choice is Alice right now, and I don't know if she even remembers me hahaha. It's going to be almost two weeks come Monday. Eh, if not then screw the semi-formal. Yup, I told you I wasn't going to bring a "friend." As I said, that's bullsh*t. AFC stuff. I'd rather punish myself for pussying out rather than take a friend. Bleh. Yeah. So if she does remember me and I get the first date and successfully get some more dates, I don't want to rush and blow it. Lemme think what I'm going to do tomorrow ... if my throat is ok I'mma go to the movies w/ Chui. F*ck macking, I think too much about girls nowadays. Tomorrow I'm going to take off, unless I see an opportunity I just can't pass up. I'm outie

What's bangin? Yep, today was a monster of a day. Woke up, yadda yadda. Quang came over to tape the Spanish commercial. That was fun, and embarassing. Hmm lemme count the embarassing moments:
1. Having to wear a bra. And then have them stuffed with socks.
2. Having to go outside in thermal underpants and a wife beater. Keep in mind that the thermal underpants had plenty of holes in it. And there was a group of people walking past my house as we were filming that scene.
3. Ummm, I can't think of anymore, but that's enough embarassment for one commercial.
I'm tired. Oh yeah, as for macking, when they ask why when I ask their name, I'll say, "Well, because I don't see you wearing a name-tag now do I?" And if they don't laugh at that, then I'm outta there. That's a better reply cuz then they just can't say, "But why?" again like to my other response. Okay, so my approach now consists of "Hi, how're you doing? Name? Situational comment/question. Bang, number and leave. Make sure I get some light kino going too. Good stuff. Dammit I caught Jenny's cough. Ah wellz. I'm tired.

Sup. Well, today was a great day! Yup, I was able to sleep really well last night, and I left the house around 11:30. I ate at Pizza Hut and then went macking to find my balls again. I said that I wouldn't be going home until I talked to a girl, and damn, it took a while. I started walking around with the intent to mack at about 12:30, and it took me three (!!!) f*cking hours, but I finally got the balls to approach again. Ok, first lemme review the missed opportunities: there are two that come to mind. One, was when I was walking and bang, made eye contact with this one girl sitting with her friend. Another was when I just plain chickened out approaching a girl on the bus stop. I was growing weary of walking, and bought some Almond tea thing at Bubble Cafe and then sat down in front of the library to drink it. There I was, drinking the Almond tea, and bang I see a cutie standing around near the entrance. My sister is sipping on her almond tea that I bought her and she says, "Ok, there's a girl right there." I see, and refind my balls. Bang, go up to her, hi, how're you doing? Good? What's your name? Why you wanna know? (Oowee! Time for the line!) Because your not wearing a name tag, and I want to know your name! (gets a lil laugh from the girl) But why? (dammit) Then her boyfriend comes. Oh sorry, bye. haha You shoulda seen the smile on my face. hehe Okay, I've recovered my balls from the lost & found, so now on Saturday when I go out again, it'll be all good. I'll be ready to rumble. I've realized that I need to get at least one number either on Saturday or Sunday so I can have a choice between Alice or the other girl. I don't remember how the heck Alice looks like though, but Chui says she looked cute and pretty. Okay, so since Alice is on vacation right now, I'll call her up on Monday (better than talking to machine) and set up a date on Friday or Saturday. When I get a number on Sat or Sun, I'll call up that girl on say Wed, and then set up something for whichever day Alice didn't choose. There is so little time until the semi-formal though, 4 weeks!? Argh. Well, honestly, if I don't get to the point where I'm close enough to one of these girls to take them to the semi-formal, then screw it. Screw the semi-formal, this is about me evolving and advancing my relationships. My plan right now for the long run: get a girlfriend, infiltrate the social circles, befriend some other cool dudes and meet more hot girls. Thus I don't have days like today where I'm stuck macking alone cuz Chui was out in NJ due to family business and Eben is sometimes not dependable. Yes, so to get to that point socially, I must take little steps at a time. For every girl I approach, that will help me gain the confidence and conversational skills to obtain a hottie one day. And that'll be great. Now, next on my agenda is to think of another hobby. Cuz dammit the past two days I've been bored outta my mind at night and have resorted to breaking out the old Dreamcast again. Videogames are evil I tell you. I'm going to either restart playing chess, reading books for leisure, or writing poems or stories again. Three things, pretty tough. Hmm, chess. Nah. So it's down to either books or writing. Both have their strongpoints. Dammit, who says I can't do both? Yes, I think this can work. And dammit, Vince Carter is so damn overrated. He's good and all, but dammit, he can't take control of the game when it comes crunch time. Look at the Raptors now without him: they've won 5 or 6 straight! Boo Vince Carter, BOO! Now if you want a real kickass 2, get Kobe. He's good. Damn good. And for point guards, it's still John Stockton baby. My favorite player of all time. The white boy, number 12, Stockton! Woohoo.

Well Quang just came over and left a bit back. We made all the materials needed for filming, and we're going to continue the spanish commercial on Friday.

HAHAHAHA This is toooooo funny! www.emotioneric.com Need a laugh? It'll at least bring a smile outta you, guaranteed.

LOL Candice is so funny. Either that or I'm just in a happy mood. Oh, and this post is a godsend: http://www.sosuave.com/ubb/Forum6/HTML/001557.html And if you must ask, yes I'm going to be trying out a lot of these next time I go out. :D hehe

And oh yeah, about Alice. I've realized that it would be reeeeeally stupid to leave a message, so I'm waiting another week until about Monday or Tuesday. Nike was on to something when they chose "Just Do It" as their motto. A great way to live life

Well. I saw Alex today with her cousin again, said hi, but I just walked past. I have reverted to AFC J-Rey. It's like ... I dunno. I think I've lost the enjoyment out of approaching. Today I didn't mack. Though I had like a dozen opportunities. Ooooh shit. My fellow DJ Gio has helped me. Also props to Sun-Tan. Okay. I need to think of different way to approach this. It must be a game. I've forgotten that in reality it really is all a game. It's meant to be enjoyed and not taken too seriously. And seriously, who cares what those girls will think of me? I approach, they accept or reject, then go on their merry way. Gio thought up a great response to when a girl says, "Why?" when I ask her what her name is. Bang! "Because you're not wearing a name tag and I wanted to know your name. (smile)" HAHA That's a great one. I must work on my wit again. I don't know where this renewed fear came from. But the only way to get rid of it is to start approaching again. And the only way to start approaching again is taking action. I can't tomorrow, but on Thursday, if we've finished the Spanish project, then I'm not coming home until I do at least one approach. Even if it takes me five hours to regroup my courage and self-confidence. Just do it

Woo! I feel really good today. And last night I was actually able to lay back and ENJOY the basketball game. Nice. I need to ask my mom if she can buy me a new street basketball cuz my other Spalding streetball is dead. I can't pupmp it up to full. Crud. Now I only have one usable basketball, and that one I only use at school cuz it gets scruffed up too easily on outdoor courts. And yup, I feel tired today, so I guess I can go macking. I'mma try my hand at cooking today. I want to learn how to cook stuff, so when I get older I don't starve myself. Not to mention that I've heard that women love a guy that can cook a mean romantic dinner, which is always a plus. Hmm, so yeah I'll go out and borrow a tape or something today, and then walk around Main for a bit. Then I'll drop my sis off to some friend's birthday party, and there you go. Good stuff

Hmm, well the disruptive sleep and the low feeling didn't truly go away. It came back in force when I wanted to mack today. My AFC tendencies went back full force, causing me to hesitate, be nervous when approaching, and feeling down when rejected. I wasn't able to shrug it off today, dunno why. Ah wellz. I guess it was because I was focusing too much on girls and not on my other hobbies. I must have subconsciously known that I was spending too much time actively macking and not enough time letting it just come to me. I should have just given up today when I felt a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach ... a kind of sickening gut feeling. Hmm well anyways, I've got some funny stories to share today. I got rejected outright every single time today ... haha. Okay, I think I did like 4 approaches, not too bad. There was one really funny approach, when I approached a girl and then bang! Out of nowhere came her mom from behind us ... HAHA! I thought the coast was clear ... well after like a half hour of this I played ball for the first time in like 4 weeks. Whoa it felt good. My shot was really consistent today, prolly around the 50% mark. I need some work on post up skills still, but I'm improving. B-ball is the shit ... woo! I still need work on my left hand too ... I want to be like my basketball hero, John Stockton. Damn he's cool. Nothing too fancy, he just executes. He gets the job done baby. I'm tired. I'm going to watch the NCAA Final today. I think it's the Hoosiers versus Maryland. Let's go underdog Hoosiers! Woohoo! Hmm, what should I do tomorrow? I know in the morning I'm going to finish up my spanish homework. Oooh shit. I've gotta call Alice ... hmm I'll give it another day. Today was just not my day, let me not push it and call when I'm doubting myself at the moment from my appraoches of the day. Hmm, so yeah. If I'm tired tomorrow, then I'll mack. If I'm not tired, then I'm going to play some ball. Oh wait, I wonder if it's going to rain tomorrow ... lemme check. Ok good, no rain. Okay. Today I tried the cool, calm, and collected approach. That didn't work. So I'll revert back to the "Hi, what's your name? (smile)" Suaveness is not my strong suit haha. Energy, charisma, and confidence are ... however, number three was affected today, causing a drastic change in the other two. I can regain it, tomorrow is another day. Life is too short to let shit like this bother you. Ready to rumble

Dude, I had a disruptive sleep. I fell asleep around 12:30 and woke up at 6. Then I dozed until 7 and I just got out of bed and ate breakfast cuz I couldn't get back to sleep. And kooky me, I forgot it was April Fools Day today ... weather.com fooled me! hahaha Those kooky weathermen, who says weathermen don't have personalities? Back to my depressed state last night ... I've recovered. I dunno what it was, perhaps a hormone rush. Not sure. After reading DarkDream's article, I've got a huge uplift in spirit. Here's what I say about it: "Thanks DarkDream. I was entering a phase of self-doubt and a feeling of emotional downess, and I realized now that it was because I was living my life being judged by the opinions of others. I've gotta live MY life, not what other people think my life should be. I've gotta strive for self-improvement, not for others and to look good, but for the most important person in my life: myself." Yeah baby. Am I ready to mack? Am I ready to live life again? Am I? Ready to rumble bitch!!!!!

Almost forgot, I've got an 18-year-old cousin from Cali that is visiting NY for the week that I'm being called upon to entertain. I wonder if he's a nerd or a playa ... if a nerd, I'll teach him the ways of the DJ. If a playa, I'll watch him in action. And we can go play pool, watch a movie, or go around in Manhattan on Friday. I'll figure something out.